You know just when I think I have it all together, Praise the Lord, He shows me otherwise. The Lord has blessed me with a gift of writing or shall I say perhaps a passion for it. Everyday I dabble a little here and there on the computer. I learn best by vision and repetition so often times when I want to remember a verse I will just type away. This helps me with not only memorizing verses but also it allows me to meditate on the verse as it opens my soul to hear what the Lord would have me to take away from each verse. I came across this one today.
As I have shared I am a typing fanatic. I have various journals and ideas all tucked away. I have prayer journals chalk full of victories the Lord has won over my life. So I guess your wondering what in the world would this verse have to do with me being a word processor! Okay here it goes……
I have a confession. Each morning I wake, shut off my alarm and come up to my bedroom nook and spend a sweet hour of prayer with my Lord. However, I have been doing this via a written letter. I am able to see my thoughts in black and white, see the errors I have made and the faithfulness of the Lord. But as I read and meditated on this scripture, the Lord reminded me who He is. He is not only my daddy, but He is my LORD!!!! He doesn’t mind that I write Him a letter now and again, but He doesn’t want that to be my only communication with him during this sweet hour. See when I write I must admit I am not completly focused on Him. I am often times going back and changing mispelled words, or I am making my words sound better to me. I am not coming to the Lord whole heartedly, He is recieving the revised version, when he wants the rough draft. He knows I am not perfect, so why am I trying to perfect my words before Him.
A prayer journal is a wonderful thing to keep. It is amazing looking back on all the doo you went through and came out smelling of the finest roses. But it should never take place of the worship our Lord is not only entitled to but truly desires. He wants to hear your voice!!!.
On bended knee, we must boldly come to the throne of grace, where there is mercy and grace.
Communicating through letter shows a cowardly way to do business if you think about it. I could always remember writing letters left and right for every situation or problem that arose with my friends. I for one did not want to say anything wrong and for two I could get my point across without interuption. That was what I was doing with the Lord. I made sure to get my point across but the problem was I was not recieving any mail from Him. This for me was a much easier way to communicate, especially when it came to the part of confessing the sins. For some reason when they are spoken it just sounds worse doesn’t it. Bingo!!! In order to be humble before Him we must know how low and dirty we are. He has challenged me to come forward and speak of the faults of my life and the desires of my heart. He wants to understand the whole lot of what I am saying. He wants to be sure there is no misinterpertation as to where I am coming from. You know some things really look different on paper…. I guess so if I have perfected it. Ha ha.
Upon the Lords loving direction, the only thing left for me to do is to obey. I must give him a bended knee, an open heart and a humbled spirit.
How are you worshiping today? Anything distracting you from this complete joy?
Don’t seek to get anything out of worship. Worship to give all of you to Him.
Hebrews 4:16- Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
