March 7, 2008
Being Confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6
I have been writing for as long as I can remember. For fun I would write silly poems, or write little stories. I didn’t realize until recently that it was a major part of my life, of who I am. Writing is an outlet for me. Let’s face it, it is the only time that I can talk without being interrupted ! Although on the outside I am quiet and shy, on the inside I just can’t stop rambling. Most would say that I get this from my dad. Most of the time he is quiet and reserved but when He is passionate and really trying to get the point across he hops on the rambling roadway and doesn’t stop until he reaches his destination. My mom and I share the gift of writing but it is my dad and I that can take a three worded sentence and make it a long story. Writing is a great passion, and when I combine my passion for the Lord with the passion I have for writing I can’t help but to be long winded.
Right now I am experiencing some things that have left me saying “I don’t understand!”
As some of you may know mom and I have been praying over an amazing opportunity to attend the Blueridge Writers Conference in North Carolina. On January 25th I knew that I knew the Lord answered my prayer. This is the Scripture that He supplied and what I had written.
Jan 25, 2008
I know the plans I have for you, announces the Lord, I want you to enjoy success, I do not plan to harm you. I will give you hope for the years to come. Jeremiah 29:11( Nirv)
One of the major things that I fear is success. The fear of depending on the blessings over the Lord. But I have realized that the Lord will only let me go so far, and then He will take action, and whatever the action may be, it will bring me to humiliation, then humility and then a great reverence. I must not fear to make mistakes, because it is through those very mistakes that I see the Lord work His mighty miracles. This morning during my study time, like the hosts of American Idol my Lord said to me “You’re going to Hollywood!!!” Well, my success story isn’t coming out of Hollywood but from His holy word! I wonder if that’s where the confusion is! Those poor people in Hollywood totally misunderstood didn’t they (ha, ha). I know the answer for me is that I must go to the BlueRidge Writers Conference. I don’t know how He is going to get me there or when I am to make arrangements for accomadations, childcare, or what courses to take etc. But you know this is where faith kicks in. I know my Lord when He speaks because I am His follower. I will not do anything else until further notice. But it looks like I will be going up against the critics. And like many of the participants on American Idol I will be claiming my talent. Well I know from watching the show that all though you claim it, it doesn’t necessarily mean that it is for you. Contestants who have come forward and belted out there souls are completely horrified at the fact that the judges do not agree with them. On a few occasions you will find a loved one sitting in on the audition, really enjoying what the singer has to share. I must tell you as an outsider looking in, it’s all wrong!!! Simon likes to say that love is certainly deaf. So as I watch the whole experience I am wondering, what is their motivation? Are they doing this based on lies that a family member or friend have encouraged or was it simply just deaf admiration? I find it hard to believe the Lord has called them to be singers- but I can believe the Lord calling them to the experience.I certainly do have a passion for writing. My mom, among many of my friends claim that I am talented! And I would not believe them except that the reason I am going to this conference is that the Lord, the keeper of my spirit has guided my soul on this trip. I know that I know that I know, I am supposed to be at this conference. So any Simons that I meet just beware, I am a success, It s just up to the Lord which way I go from here!!!
Today March 7th I have the funds! My mom is struggling financially and I can’t afford for us both to go. The thought of going by myself I will admit is a fear. And up till now I have always had the mentality if you’re afraid press on and do it. Having admitted this fear to the Lord and Satan enjoying the playground of my mind I have come to realize that Satan also uses fear to get us sidetracked. Let me see if I can explain it. I fear, I do it- totally forgetting to ask the Lord if it is something He wants me to do. Because I figure I can beat fear by just doing it. That is so far from the Truth. The only way to beat fear is with God. After being totally confused it is now well with my soul that me and mom are meant to experience this together. So here is what I am not understanding. I completely got His message that I am to go, I completely got His message that this is something for me and mom. And right now I have the money, mom doesn’t . I don’t know when the deadline is and although I want to close the situation it remains open. I find myself relying on the money now because I feel as if this plan will not come to pass this year. But right now I am feeling a strong desire to keep it back. There is so much going on right now and within the next few months that it will really have to be a miracle from the Lord to go. (and Miracles do still happen) This is a walk of faith and right now I don’t know when, but I do know we are going to the writer’s conference.This morning’s scripture in Philippians 1:6 has encouraged me to be patient. He has begun this work in me and He will see that it is finished. I am Believing God!!!!!
Another Word of Encouragement:
Trust in the Lord with all your hearts lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and He shall direct your Paths. Proverbs 3:5-6
Amanda Lee Greene
www.justbreatheministries.wordpress.com
